Almost There

In chapter 17 Esther switches asylums from Caplan to Belsize. At Belsize the women have more freedom and Esther heard that Joan had shopping privileges and she could go out and even call her husband if she wanted to. The women at Belsize are normal and aren't always all depressed from shock treatments because they don't get them. We first see Esther compare her life to a bell jar in chapter 15 when she is talking about how she should be grateful to Mrs. Guinea but she didn't know how to be and she didn't fell "anything". Esther feels like no matter what happens, if she would fly away to paris and start a new life or go any place in the world it wouldn't matter she would still feel trapped. In chapter 18 before she gets the ability to move asylum's she gets her last shock treatment. At first she is really mad at Dr. Nolan for not telling her but the doctor says that she didn't tell her because she didn't want her to be worried about it. Esther gets the shock treatment but during the process she falls unconscious. Esther wakes up and she all of a sudden feels better. esther says that she feels like the bell jar has been lifts a few feet above her head and she is no longer trapped directly under it. She starts feeling less depressed and starts getting the shock treatments 3 times a week. She no longer feels like her sickness is just lingering behind her.