The Doctor

In chapter 10 Esther asks the family doctor Teresa for me sleeping pills and then she recommends a psychiatrist to her. She goes to see this psychiatrist, Dr. Gordon, and hates him immediately. She thinks he is conceited and just likes to show off his perfect beautiful family. She doesn't like the doctor at all because she doesn't think he takes her seriously and he wants to give her shock treatment at one of his hospitals. In her second meeting with him she brings a letter to him that she tried to write to Doreen but her hand writing wasn't legible so she ripped it up. She thinks about running away to Chicago but realizes the bank will close before she can withdrawal any money. She decides to stop seeing the doctor after the shock treatment because of how crappy she feels. I think the doctor is hurting her because she still feels the same and then after the shock treatment she feels even worse. But she starts thinking about suicide and if it would matter if she were dead or not because she practically feels like it anyways. So i think she definitely needs some kind of help. 

Esther's Return

Chapter 9 and 10 are a little strange. After Esther's final night in New York she hops on he next train to Boston and returns home. Upon her return we get the sense that Esther is going a little insane. She is still wearing the cloths that Betsy gave her she still hasn't wiped the blood off of her face that Marco put there because she likes it for some odd reason. She gets home and all these thoughts start running through her mind. Jody calls her and Esther let's her know that she didn't get into the writing program at Cambridge and she wont be staying with her. She then gets a letter from Buddy telling her that he is falling in love with a nurse but if he goes quickly to see her, she has the chance of wining him back. Esther angered by the letter decides to cross the writing out, flip it over and write him back saying she is engaged. She then wants to start up a novel but she quickly runs out of ideas because of her lack of life experience. She shortly becomes very frustrated and very annoyed with everyone and everything around her. At on point in the novel she wants to strangle her mom because of how loud she is snoring. I think she is a little short tempered and more then annoyed and in need of sleeping pills because she still isn't over her violent night with Marco. He almost raped her and she almost allowed it to happen but then she punched his nose and she left.